Psalm 28:7
The LORD is
my strength and my shield; my heart trusts in him, and I am helped. My heart
leaps for joy and I will give thanks to him in song.
I sometimes wonder what really ignites my inner
strength, sometimes there are some days I feel as though I just don’t have that
one more push and or fight in me, sometimes there are days that I feel like
life is sucking me bone dry but in those days I always know that giving up is
not an option, (don’t worry saints I pray-prayer is my lively regiment) but in
this note I just want to be transparent, I can tell you that some of the things
that keep me going in life is believing in my heart that the more tougher it
gets the more closer I am, for instance, my writing seasons are usually at an all-time
peak between the months of January through July, for some reason these have
always been my most productive months for the last 5 years, this time around I am working on my 3rd fiction novel, it’s very deep, very
dear and very emotional to me however I am excited very much about it, as I connect
with my characters my debilitating head-aches came to visit me, now mind you
they usually happen once every other year in the fall, this time it’s an early arrival,
they are enough to become a show stopper in my moments work but I realized
something this time, just because life wants to stop you dead in your tracks
with its spontaneous inconveniences doesn't mean you have to stop for life to
have its way, now I am to the point where I am just going to work around it,
through it and past it to finish what I started because like all else, this too
shall come to pass, sure it feels awkward trailing an oxygen tank around and
constantly relying on it to alleviate my head aches but it could be worse, my
condition is not chronic, it’s always temporary and I thank God that I am very
much alive, I write this candidly to you so that you understand
that, “life happens” and just because “life happens” doesn't mean YOU have to
stop happening, there will always be a light at the end of the tunnel the
question is, “how long is your tunnel?” ;-)
now on another note bad life moments make for future memory giggles. Be
Blessed! XOXOXO
“Strength is the ability to dig deep down inside
to the core of your body and use all the
resources from within to survive one more try, one more hope, one more prayer
and one more faith to keep living.” -Memory Bengesa
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